The World Shimmers, But Not Everyone Can See It

Sunglasses: Prada; Necklace: Stone (Mexico), Coat: Calvin Klein via Goodwill, Legging Pants: BCBG, Sweater: All Saints, Backpack: Vince Camuto, Socks: The Spare Room, Los Angeles, Booties: Jeffrey Campbell

Photo Cred: Becca Aguilera, Location: West Village, New York

What is true strength? Forgiveness. A topic that has been penetrating my thoughts for the past 2 years. I always believed that true strength came from walking away and letting go. Sometimes it still does. What's harder than that? Forgiving someone. How much better has my life been since I learned this? Exponentially.. 

Just watch. I dare you to look up at the night sky tonight, and every night. In fact, do it as often as you can. Time stops in these moments and you are allowed a beautiful glimpse of eternity. None of us really know where we are or what is going on here. We are all floating in space and anything is possible. I have found that love is a state of mind. Fall deeply in love with yourself. This is the surest way to fall in love with someone else, and with the rest of existence..

If you pay close enough attention your mind is expanding with each passing moment. So is the universe. So follow your bliss. Your happiness, true happiness, matters more than anything. So figure out what it is that makes your soul flow and spend your life dwelling in it. 

I hesitate to use the word "bad" because I feel that most everything in the world has both bad and good elements. That being said, negative things may have happened to you but that doesn't mean the world is negative. Let the flowers, crystals, music, trees, dragonflies, stars, memories and dreams remind you of the magic that inherits the earth. There are no mistakes here. Everything is as it should be. Your reality will transform once you realize this. Trust the universe. The waves are headed in one direction only to be pushed back by the shore. Be like the waves and trust the process without judgement, without resistance. Nature is embedded with an infinite amount of wisdom..

It Ends Or It Doesn't

Flannel (my brother's) Long Sleeve Shirt (Amanda's) Necklace (Tanya's) Shorts (Madewell) Booties (Lucky Brand) Location: Bushwhack Brooklyn, New York

It ends or it doesn’t. That’s what “they" say. That’s how you get through it. The tunnel, the night, the pain, the love. It ends or it doesn’t. If the sun never comes up, you find a way to live without it. If they don’t come back, you sleep in the middle of the bed, and learn how to make only one cup of tea. Adapt. Adjust. It ends or it doesn’t. We do not perish.

I am free, and when I said that I was me

Flannel: A+F (what?) Necklace: J.Crew, Tank: Dimepiece, Skirt: BCBG, Booties: Sam + Libby

Been a while, have you missed me? I know I missed you. Sometimes life is like that - pressing events occur and take up all your time and energy making it so there is none left to focus on much else. The month of March was wow, a pretty salacious one. I'm still getting over it! I moved again, quit my job, had mid-terms, everyone I know in California came to visit, I went to Colombia, joined the board of a non-profit and somehow I am still alive. But this isn't my diary, this is kellmenow and I'm back with a brand new lay out.. What do you think?! 

Change is good. Change is constant but I feel like I've had enough change for at least 365 days. Yes I've grown as an individual, but I'm looking forward to completing my first year of graduate school (how did this happen) + landing a new position + enjoying a nice NYC summa.. Rose on Sundays. Ya dig?

XOXO

spiked zig zags

Zig Zag Crop: ROMWE Jeans: J. Brand Jean Jacket: Forever 21 Sideways Hat: NYY Sneakers: Nike

When I was first graced with New York's presence as my new home, I was accompanied by one enormous red suitcase (mad thanks to Costco) and two baby suitcases. Rendering my outfit choices limited, at best. At the time, it was a not-so welcomed challenge in the sweltering NY heat. I have always been the kind of gal that feels pangs of anxiety having my clothes in multiple locations. I need them all in the same place. Call me a princess, whatever! Not having this for the first month was unpleasant but I also started to find it fun. How's that for you! I was able to put things together I otherwise would've never thought of. Talk about being pushed out of a comfort zone. As if quitting my job, moving across the country to chase a dream didn't already do that? :) 

Pardon all of the kellfies, there were before I made my NY friends! What do you think? Spiked jean jackets and zig zags?